Merry Christmas~~~~~~~

Today is Christmas but I have to stay at home and correct the exam papers~~~~~~ Poor Janer!!! Somehow, it's a good way to earn some money. Anyway, at the end of 2008, the most happy day on December is Christmas Eve. It's really awesome, wonderful and crazy!!!!!!!!!!

On Christmas Eve, first we had a party at our unit. Ten people cooked at our unit. We prepared the corn soup, hot pot, toast pizza, and dessert. It cost us not much and we did have great fun. We cooked together just like family and when a dish was done, we would yell for the successful work. Moreover, I suddenly find out that how talented my friends are about cooking. It's really very delicious.

After the party, Peter and I went to our friend's band performance at 89K. It's really fantastic. Everyone was so high and so happy. We shouted and screamed. The only thing I can say about this is it's good to be young!!!!!!!!! We are all young, healthy, handsome, pretty and the most important of all, we are full of energy. It's really good to be young. I wish I will never get old~~

When I saw them stand on the stage, I suddenly understand why young people are always full of dreams and hopes. We lead a new generation and when I saw them stand on the stage, I saw the power of control. Hoping one day I can also do something for this society and lead a new generation. HAHA!!!! Christmas Wishes!!!!!!!!

I am who I am now!!!!!

Finally, I get rid of something that I want to forget. Now, I am Janer again and I am happy. I feel hopeful and I am filled with great ambition to do what I want to do. It's good to live again!!!!!!!!!
Wonderful life, wonderful world and wonderful future!!!!!!


This is really a busy month and I don't even aware that it's already in the middle of December. I have a crazily busy week this week and I caught a cold and it really makes me suffer but I am much better now. I've been busy since last Friday. I went to visit my aunt and the next day, Saturday, I went to my sister's high school which was also my high school and visit my teachers and my sister. Sunday, I went to the movie with my sister and me cousin to see the movie ''Twilight''. It's really good and makes me want to fall in love with vampire, too. HAHA!! XDDDD I did my homework on Monday and it also make me feel tired. Tuesday, I went to dinner with my school sisters. Anyway, this is really a busy week and I have many places to go this weekend~~~~~~~ Now, I do really cherish my free time.

Today, I am free and I am really happy about that because I can stay in my room, listen to classical music and do my homework and read. I love it!!!!!!! So leisure and so free~~~~~~~

FANTASTIC show~~~~~~~

Today, we all did a great job!!!!!! I like this feeling so much. All my friends are all so happy and that's the main reason why I am so happy, too. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Ben, you did a amazing job!!!!!!!!!! My life is so colorful because of you, such a good friend!!!!!!


Today is a wonderful busy day and we all have a great time and a great show. I love to see that everyone is in a happy mood. The show is successful and funny. However, after this one act play, I think I have to concentrate on my study now. I think it's the time to go back to the normal life again and STUDY STUDY and STUDY!!!!! READ, READ, and READ!!! HAHA!!!


But...................



Christmas is coming~~~~~~~~~~~~~~XDDDDDDDDDDD Celebrate, Celebrate, Celebrate~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Today, my Australian friend asked me when is our holiday and I told him that I have to still till the middle of next week and he told me that '' It suckz!!!! You will still hv uni during xmas!!! '' Well.... I do really feel it sucks but, however, Xmas is not our most important day during the year but the Chinese New Year. Anyway, I do really hope that we don't have class at Xmas. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Why so busy~~~~~

I don't know why. I am very busy recently. The most terrible thing is I don't know what I am busy for. Time just goes by without saying good-bye to me. I am SO BUSY. Well... somehow, that makes me feel good because it can make me forget the thing that I don't want to remember and have fun with all my dear friends. It's good to have so many good friends when I am sad~~~

I 've been thinking a lot of things recently: my future, what are the difficulties I need to break through in my study, what do I want to read, what am I going to do during next year. Plenty of things just stick in my head. I am sort of losing myself, I guess. It does really take time to do something terrific..........

This week is a weird week. Things and feelings change a little but not much and I am not that sad anymore. How long can I completely get rid of a thing that once did really mean something to me and stop thinking of it when I wake up in every morning? It does really take time to forget....

The Catcher in the Rye is the book that I read recently and I think not only me but also many other classmates read this book. It's a book full of the hatred for phony, dope, and crap. HAHA!!!It's just the way this book is. I sort of like it.

Happy Birthday ~~~

This Monday is my birthday and I was really happy that day. All my friends gave me the best wishes when I turned to 20. I am 20 years old now!!!!!!!! It's a little bit incredible because from now on my age starting with the number 2 instead of the number 1. The next ten years will be another colorful ten years because within these ten years, my life might have big changes. I might graduate from college, find a job I like or hate very much, stay in Taiwan, go to Australia again or I might crazily get married. Well... maybe I will become a wealthy woman, a poor wife or a happy wife with a lovely husband. Who knows! Now it's the beginning of my 20 years old so I don't know what will happen but I am really excited about it. I wish everything will happen according to my plan but I know that is just only a wish but I will try my best anyway. Try my best and do everything with no regrets.

I want to especially say thank you to Little Flower, Book, and Ian. Because of them I had a happy birthday. Thanks for the cakes. It's the most delicious cake I ate in the world. HAHA!! I know it's kind of flattering but this is the only way I can figure out to describe my gratitude toward all you guys. Also thank you for all my friends who gave me their wishes. Thank you, Ben for your delicious cake. I am glad that you remember chocolate is my favorite!!!!

I don't know if you will see these. I think you won't but I still have to say. Thank you, Peter and Thang, for your wishes. You are all so busy but you didn't forget my birthday!! It really impressed me because I only mentioned it one time but you remember. I am really happy about that and so glad that I met you all. Hoping that there will be more and more splendid sunny days there in Australia and I also hope that you can all enjoy your summer there.

The most important of all, I love my family and my aunts and the appreciation is beyond description.......

The end

When I realize what ever is, it's already been an ever........................................It just suddenly dawn on me that I finally get through it. No matter how hard it is, I did and it's hurtful.

Memories won't fade, so do the feeling. I cherish everything, every moment and everyday with no regret. It has been two years and I want to say Thank you for everything given. I know it is the end. Maybe, the way it is now is the main reason why all that memories are so beautiful. Things change; feeling changes; but the one in the past won't. Sadly, the one in the past is already dead. I buried it in the deepest side in my heart and realize that it won't ever wake again. Somehow, I can't stop and always I will cherish and never hurt because I ever promised.

Once, ever, two years ago, was, were, before, all the past tense is crying for they will never exist again because they can only live in yesterday. Today, I am here living in now, having future, tomorrow, happiness, and all the beautiful dreams and hopes. Leave ever be ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't Know I am so Angry!!!!!

After the terrible midterm exams, I still lead a terrible life because of the terrible essays written by the terrible senior high school students terrified me. First, I want to say THANK YOU to all my English teachers, sincerely from the button of my heart!!!! My English is not really good, part because I am not a native speaker and part because I don't work hard enough, but I think the later one is the main reason. When I was correcting their essays, I realized that it's really a hard time for all English teachers when they have to face our terrible compositions and I also highly doubted that how could any normal people wrote something like ''I am very like watch cartoon''. I mean does any terrible damages just happen to their Broca's area or Wernick's area in their brain? Then I must feel really really sorry for them. The two areas in my brains go crazy sometimes but I am sure that it doesn't go that far. If anything I said in this blog offends anyone, I apologize '' I am sorry ''.(Sincerely is wearing a hat called ''Not'') After correcting 571 papers, I think I live in a hopeless country. Well..... I don't even know whether it is a country or not.
Now I am afraid of being a teacher because the responsibilities are too heavy for me. I don't know!!!! If I were a teacher and all my students write essays like that, I will feel so ashamed that I don't know what is the purpose to be a teacher.
I don't want to let myself down and also, I don't want to humiliate all my teachers(They are all perfectly good.) because I think I SHOULD take the responsibility of my life and the effects I caused upon others .I will do my best.

Finally Free

This is a stressful week because of the midterm exams. They did really drive me crazy but that's already a did and not do.(It means that it is already a past tense.) However, even though this is a busy week, I feel I really did my best this week. Well... at least, I tried my best and did all I can do. It's really tired to prepare for the tests. I mean reading and being a student are all really good and happy things but when people have to read for the tests, reading becomes a stressful job because people can't read whatever they like and have to focus on things that may appear in the tests. This can also make a interesting novel become terrible novel.(But that doesn't mean that I don't like that novel. I still love it.) Anyway, the exams were over and I can read happily again now instead of being stressful. HAHA!!! So let's welcome the happy reading days!!!!
After all these exams, all things will back to normal and I can start to do all the things I plan or I want to do. I hope this is a good beginning and wish that all things will be perfectly fine!!!!!!!

Good luck to Janer~~~~~~~~~~~ HAHAHAHA!!!

What a good day!!!!

Today is Wednesday and it's a wonderful day because I will clean my room on Wednesday. Today, after my favorite class, I went back home, took my clothes inside, put down my bag and put the clothes into the closet and then I went to the kitchen and cooked for my lunch. I cooked green bean soup, eggs, Chinese cabbage and some rice. Finishing the lunch made me feel satisfied and full so I think it was time to do some exercise. I started to clean my room. First, I clean the mirror. I don't want even a dust on it because mirror is very important to me so I used brush to brush the glass then the wet rag to clean it, finally I used tissue to clean it again till I got a shining mirror. I also cleaned my desk and boxes but the most important part of my work is mop the floor. I don't use the mop to mop my room's floor because I think it will make the floor get dirtier so every time I mop the floor I use a rag to clean it. Stepping on the shining floor makes me feel happy and relaxed. After all the clean work was done, I went to take a wonderful shower and feel even even more relaxed, calm, peaceful and great.


With a 100 percent clean room, 100 percent clean mood and body, I happily go on line to write my blog and then prepare to study. Doing housework really makes life more wonderful!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

2008.6.25

After the day I arrived Australia, I went to see many new houses. Peter's mom was searching for a new house and she asked me whether I have interests to go with them and I said ''Ok!!!'' because I really wanted to see what would other house look like inside. We went to Parramatta and other places at that day but I can't remember them. We visit four houses within one day. The first one is at the corner of the road and the road is kind of steep so half of the house is underground. The second one is quite big and beautiful but the rooms are too small and which impressed me was that the house owner's TV is really big and he also hung Chinese calligraphy painting in his living room. The third one was wide but not really deep. I can see their backyard when I went in the house but the living rooms and rooms are beautiful. I also remember the house owner made a lot of earrings, necklaces, and bracelets by herself and they are really beautiful. The forth one was really far but their garden is big but the house is not that big but it's also lovely. After visiting so many houses, Peter have no comments on which one should they buy. He just hoped the whole thing could settle down as soon as possible. This interests me because if I were him I would feel really excited. But it's also not difficult to understand why he had that notion because he is the busiest one about the house stuff. However, they finally find one which is really close to my cousin's house. The houses in Australia are all beautiful and elegant it makes me want to become a designer.

Plain Wednesday

Today is a very very plain day. I woke up at 8:30, prepared to go to school. After three hours, I went back home and cook for my lunch. It's good to have such a simple life. I have plenty of time to read, think, paint, do housework, cook for myself, and get bored. HAHA!!! That's really part of my life. Sometimes, when I feel bad, bored unhappy and in a bad mood, I call my mom and chat with her. I would tell her that I was in a bad mood and also told her the reason why I was not happy. She comforted me and told me something about her own experience. I love my mom but once I got lost in the big city, in material things, in my dreams, and forgot the one who really cares about me. I was used to wondering '' Is there really someone who will really love me and care about me forever?'' That's a silly thought and it surprised me that I spent so much time to realize such a simple truth. I guess I am the most stupid girl in the world, always spending my time chasing something not belong to me and ignored everything I got. I hope she can be the happiest woman in the world for she really deserves that. So many things happened between her and me and I am really glad that everything went back to normal !!!!!!

P.S. I love my mom!!!

Happiness

Today, I just realize that no matter how sad I had ever been, I can always be happy again because of my lovely family, friends, and everything I owned.

My Unit, My life

After I became a sophomore, I move out to this lovely unit. I love my unit so much whenever I feel tired, this is the first place I want to go. After a exhausting day at school, spending the endless hours ( It seems to be like endless hours!!! HAHAHA!! ) sitting on the chair, I go back to my lovely unit. I live with two of my dear friends who really treat me well and try their best to keep our unit clean. (Of course I also try my best!!)

In our unit, we have TV, sofa, refrigerator, kitchen, and everything we need in the daily life and they were all left by the house owner. I will cook at home on Wednesday, Friday and weekend. It makes me feel this is really my home. After a busy day at school, I will go home cooking something to eat or just eat fruits and watch TV for a little while. After taking a shower, I will go back to my lovely room and do my homework, reading or listen to the music. My room makes me feel very relaxed and when I was in a bad mood, I know there is a place belongs to me and I can cry to my heart's content and feel good again. It is a place I can decide what i want to do and won't be interfered by other people or bother anyone.

Every Wednesday, after the novel class, I will go home and clean my room because that is my habit and I like to keep my room clean and tidy. I also believe that doing some housework can make people happier and a regular life can help people know what they are doing. I love a regular life and everything is done according to plan but I also like crazy things which happen unexpectedly as long as they are good things.

It is good to wake up by sun shine everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Showing appreciations to my window and the sun. HAHAHAHA!!!!

2008.7.7

Today we went to drink coffee, Terry, Peter, Joey, Candy, and me. That was late at night and it was cold but we went to the coffee shop anyway and order some different drinks from Taiwan. I remebered what I ordered was a bottle of Italian soda water. It is really special, just like the normal soda water without sugar but I prefer the one with sugar in it. Ha!! Ha!! We chatted and talked about things in Taiwan and the differences between Taiwan and Australia. That was really a happy night although we went back home late!!!!!!! (Memories are the sweetest and bitterest things in the world!! How strange!! )

2008.7.6

Joey came yesterday. Today we went to a beach which called Cronolla Beach, we drove there and it had to thanks Terry again because he was the driver. We first went to Peter's place and they were busy in cleaning the holy house so we helped after that we went to the beach and so did Terry's brother. We first went to the wrong place because it is a bay and not a beach. We got out of the car and found out that the ''Beach'' was not like one so we asked a man who took a walk with his dogs and he told us that it is a ''Bay'' not a beach. Therefore, we went back to the car and when we were on the way back to the car, I walked happily, then Peter asked Terry '' Are you sure she is nineteen years old? ''(I told you I remember everything~~~ ). I laughed and turned. Everything is so vivid. For me, it's just like memories from yesterday. It was nightfall when we arrived there. Although it is not a beach, the sunset there was still very beautiful.

When we finally got there, it is night time. We walked on the sand beach, Joey, Terry, Peter and me. We took pictures and see the beautiful light around the beach. After a while, when we got bored we went to a restaurant where the meal there was delicious to me. Terry and I order a meal together. Well.. I can tell what food everyone ate that night but haha.. I don't think I have to. We went to the beach again after the meals and this time I walked far away thinking about something I can't remember what it is now. Terry was behind me just in case I will run into some troubles. (Appreciate!!!!!! HAAAA!!) We stood neat the water and finally the water kissed my feet when I was in a absent mind and they turned out to be wet.....

It was not a special day for me at that time but now it really is because that's the only time I went to the beach when I was in Australia, only at night time... And after the water kissed my feet, we went home.

It is really a very plain day but I am surprised that everything is so vivid in my mind!! I miss Australia~~~

2008.6.29

Next few days my cousins, Terry, take me to buy food. Everything there is much more expensive than Taiwan. A bottle of Coke there can buy three same one in Taiwan.

Since I don't like Australia very much in the beginning, everything there is not that attracting to me. However, by and by, I really fall in love with it.

The sky there is really different from Taiwan. It is so wide and beautiful. The clouds there

dancing and changing everyday. The sky stretches to the end of the world without boundaries. It is such a happy time to look at it, think nothing and let the imagination run wildly. Terry and I we all think the cloud there look so beautiful that it isn't like the real one and we make fun of it.

We say that it might be controlled by the president. He decides the shapes of the clouds everyday depends on his mood. Of course it is a joke. And that just make me wonder whether the president there today is in a good mood or not.

I also fond of the rainy day there because when the rain is falling down there, it is so silent and so quiet. I remember when the first time I see the rainy day there; it surprise me so much and I go out to listen to the sound of rain falling and turn out to hear nothing. The rain just come

quietly.

2008.6.29 Today I meet many people. I meet Le, Thang, Peter, Candy, Angela, Peter's mom, Linda's Mom and many other aunts and children because I went to have a lunch with them in a place which is far away from home, and it takes some time for us to drive there(which I should appreciate Terry because he drives Peter, me and my another cousin there.) That is a shiny day, too, so the views there are also pretty pretty. That's a beautiful day.

For the following days, I mostly stay at home and wait for another person, Joey, who is my cousin's friend and after he comes we can decide what to do then. He goes there around 7.5 I guess and after that Terry, Joey, Peter, Le, Thang, Nina, Candy, and me we have much good time together.

2008.6.23

Today is a dizzy day and I can't concentrate on my composition so I decide to let my brain write what she wants to.
Today is the 27th day after I came back from Australia. Most of my friends in Taiwan don't know what happened to me when I was in Australia. well....... no matter if you are interested in it, I am going to write down everything I remember in this blog just in case that someday when I become a old old lady I will forget them. That's the most beautiful journey in my life and it is also a journey which changes my whole life.
(I don't use past tense cus I DON'T want. Don't ask me why. The reason is really obvious.)
The first day I set out to Australia is very miserable. It is 23th June 2008 I arrive in the airport and take a plane to HK first and when I arrive in HK , the plane to Australia changes to 24th, so I take another. When I arrive the airport in Australia, no one picks me up because I take the different plane from the original one. To my surprise, my luggage is missing, too. Well..
That really makes happy!!(Of course not !!! I am almost scared to death. This is the first time I take a plane.) At least, I don't have to take so many things with me.
Where are we now? Oh! Yeah! I said that no one pick me up (maybe because they hate me so much.), so I make a phone call back to Taiwan and ask my aunt to call his son(my cousin) to pick me up. So I wait and wait..... Here he comes!!! Haahaha!! I am so happy and I tell him I just want to go home taking a shower and then sleep. How sad that he tells me we can't because we have to go to Liverpool to book ticket and that's the first time I met Peter and Linda.
That is my first day in Australia. I get in the car and I see Peter, Linda and Australia. They speak good English and it really impresses me. Peter and Linda are both born in Taiwan so they can also speak good Chinese,too. They say Hello to me and so do I. They take me to a shopping center in Liverpool. I see many shops there which are really special to me. Everything is so organized and beautiful. I remember it clearly that it is a sunny day and everyone look so leisurely. The first thing surprises me is the way to cross the road. People have to push a button so that the light for people to cross the road will turn green. When I find that, I tell Peter if I were alone I will stand and wait just like a idiot. Ha! We walk and walk, trying to find the agent to book thr tickets to Melbourne (I don't go and I regret it.). We find it and also find that we can book it on the Internet. Haaaaaa!!!!!!
So we send Peter back to the holy house and send Linda to meet her friends. After that, I go home with my cousin and talk about everything.......
This is the first day when i go to Australia I remember it clearly... The weather there is really comfortable. People say it is cold but I don't think so. It is just like we turn on the air conditioner and never turn it off because there is no wind. It makes me feel so comfortable that I won't even feel cold. I love the winter days in Australia.
There is one thing I have to mention. Actually,....... when I first arrive there I don't like Australia that much and I really miss Taiwan a lot.

9/30 Freewrriting1

Finding a job is not a easy job now because so many ecnomic problems show up recently. Most of the college students in Taiwan can't find a good job after they graduate from the nuiversity. some people would say that it is because of the ecnomic problems in the society. It might be part of the resaons but it is definitely not the main point for a person who can't find a job. As a college student, people all be trained with professional knowledges, and it must be useful in some way in our society and if a well trained student still can't find a job. The reasons might be the college student has no enthusiasm of the subject he or she studied, have no spedific gaol in their life, or can't accept the low salary jobs.

Freewritting

Memorise in Australia are my presious things in my life. I love there and i hope I can spend the rest of my life there. there are many things happened during the two months; i took a flight there which ran into many troubles, my plane changed my launguge disappeared and when I arrived there was no one to pick me up. that's the worst day in Australia and next came all the beautiful memories in me life. I lived in my cousin's house, and we cooked together went out together. they took me to visit many places, i went to the Hayde Park in the city and went shopping in the city, i also went to a casino in the city called Star City. During the time I lived there I remember the name of the stations and the streets and everywhere I had gone to. we went shopping at Bankstwon, Parramatta which is the biggist shoppning center in Australia, Strasville, and many other places. Ialso went to the Olympic Park and that place is really beatifull. I also went to the college with my cousin to see what they are studying for and to see if there is any big differences between the students in Australia aand Taiwan. Most people there know what they are doing and what they are livinf for and they have their goal of life.

Listing

Memories in Australia:

culture:

people: friendly, having the goal of their lives, happy, many races

environment: beautiful, comfortable, healthy, regular, and fun

transportation: behave, follow the rules.

plant: trees and flowers everywhere, green

school student: know what they are doning, sure of their career