April~~~~

A new month again~~~~ I think I'd better start to make a plan to schedual this new month. Don't want to work as hard as last month but put more emphasise on my study.


First I have to finish my novels and English literature.
I also want to go out and visit some places with my best friend.
One more important thing, I also have to find a tutoring job this month to help me earn more money.
And I also have to finish one essay this month.
Oh~~~~~~ and my tiring anf terrible midterm~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This wan't be a easy month.
I also hope that I can do more excersice this week.
One thing flashes into my head; I have to take a GEPT test this month.


Well.... It seems that this month will be very tiring, too. Since when I become such a busy person that I don't even have time to take a breath.

The end of March!!

This is a tiring month and I am glad that it finally comes to the end. I earned a lot of money this month and I also did a lot of things that I have to do.
Every thing went on and on~~~~~~~~ It seemed that I can never finish them and life goes on!! I feel a little bit tired but life goes on and on~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I think I will find the way out because I am still feel happy and energetic. I am Janer and Janer has to always face the bright side no matter what happened. If I want to carry out my dream, I have to solve every problem that appear to me. I hope I can become better and better and I also hope that I believe that I will become better and better. In this way, ever thing will turn out to be fine.
''Do not examine everything and every person in my life'' I told myself to remember this and then it will be easier to let go something and forgive people. I hope I can be a good adviser and a good friend. I don't want to make people feel stressful and I can't ask everyone to do exactly everything that I think it's right even though it's right. I can tell them but I can't ask them to do that because that's their life and not mine. The only thing I can do is do the best to be the person I want to be. Don't examine everything and everyone in my life and it will make it easier to let go things and forgive people~~~~~~~~

Plan...

I was used to making plans before I do everything, study, prepare for the tests, how to carry on my life etc...

I love to live a life with disciplines, order, tidiness and most important of all proper freedom. I don't like to be bound and don't like to be told to do something.

But after I go into college, I rarely really make a plan before I do anything. So many things distract my attention. Especially when I was a fresh man, I don't even know what I am doing and what should I do but now I do.

''Turn over a new leaf'', I always like this expression to show a kind if new life. I always LIKE!!! Now, I EXPERIENCE it!!! One day, when I am really 50 years old and recall all the memories of young age, I know there will no regrets left (when life offer you a dream so far beyond any of your expectation, it's not reasonable to grief when it comes to the end.)because I know I am always content and happy.

It's not to find out that being young is such a wonderful thing but sometimes people don't cherish it or don't know they have to cherish it. I am happy that I experience this feeling last Christmas. I think this is the best gift I've ever got. Sincerely, Thank God!!! Now, I know I have to take advantage of it and no more time wasted!!!!!!


Enjoy every pieces of my life, always see the bright side, and live with happiness, peace and truth.

Life~~~~

Today, I find that I have to do a lot of things this week!! I think I will die this week. I have to prepare for the exhibition next Monday and the representitive sent me all the information today. A lot of things to read, to think, to write...
I think this will be a bee week. For the essay, there are many topics to write. So many choices. What is truth? What is love? What is life? What is a good husband, boyfriend, girlfriend, or wife? There are so many things that we have to give it a definition. I want to know what truth is. I think this will be my essay topic. It's difficult. But I think I am glad to take a risk. If I succeed, I know at my this age, what is truth for me and I can figure out many problems by solving this one.
I had ever discuss this topic with my friend for several times and we both reach some agreements. I think I will put it into the essay.
And then I have to prepare something for my application!!!!!!!!!!
I have to study English literature!!!!!!!
I have to read Wide Sargasso Sea!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have to work!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have to clean my room!!!!!!!!!!
Oh!!!!!!!!!!! So many things I have to do that it really drives me crazy.
I have no time to read Twilight.
I have no time to study some brands background which I want to do lone time ago.
I have no time to sleep well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Well.. no matter what I will try my best to complete everything I want to.
Because I AM JANER!!!!!!!!!!

New experiences!!

Recently, I have been through a lot of things that I had never experienced before. But most of them, I forgot!! I only remember some special ones. The day before yesterday, I went to my friend's home to visit the other friend's dog and after that day, I also want to have a dog so badly but I am too busy to raise a dog. I think he or she will die because I have no time to feed them. HA HA!!! So I think I have to reconsider it.
Today is the first time for me to ride a motorcycle in a rainy day. It makes me feel dangerous but I think I am OK with that.
Busy in running around is me recent life and sometimes I will stop to think that why I am so busy? And then I find the answer: desire!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I keep bushing myself to get what I want, everything I want. It's encouraging but it's also tired and dangerous because sometimes people will lose themselves during the process. I think I have to calm down for several days to schedule what I have to do, what I wan most and what is the most important not just spend my time on some trivial things....