Tough Week!!!

This is a tough week because I don't feel very comfortable. I get dizzy sometimes and I do think that I need rest. I stayed at home after I worked and had a lot of sleep and finally, I feel better now.
I think I do really have to take care of myself, otherwise. with a miserable condition of health, I can do nothing.
Exercising do really help. I went jogging last night and I feel great after that. I think I should raise this habit to keep my body healthy and fit.



Recently, I always think of stupid things that I did with my best friend. For example, I went to his house one day and I bought two cups of green tea, one for him and one for me. After I paid, I forgot to take the green tea with me and I went up stairs. It's not until I was int the elevator did I remember that I left the green tea in the store. I asked him to go down stairs with me and took the beverages. Because he lent his key to his friend, we had to go up ninth floor by feet. We stood in front of the stairs and bet who can reached the ninth floor first. We discussed for a good while because the one who lost had to suffer from the other's scratching for twenty seconds. While we are discussing, one man came and I suddenly realize that we can ask the man to help us get to the ninth floor by elevator so we asked him for help and the man said yes and keep laughing at us because our discussion. HAHAHA!!!!!
Whenever I think of this incident, I always laughed because it's really funny and stupid.

Anyway, it's good to keep something happy in mind~~~~~~~~~~

I wan to say Thank you !!!

Thank you, Rick. You are right; I think I spent too much time thinking about how people see me and think about me and it makes me quite not myself recently.
Be yourself again, Janer.
Try not to care so many trivial things and life would be happier.
Oh yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways. It's good to be me.

The midterms ended. I feel GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can do whatever I want to now.
I can read without pressure.
I can draw without pressure.
I can earn money without pressure.
I can watch series without pressure. I can go out without pressure.
I can go shopping without pressure.
What a beautiful life~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's gooooooooooooooooood to be care-free.

HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

What I want to be?

I have been thinking about a lot of question about my life recently. What kind of girl I want to be. What kind of future attract me best? Is it good to take things from someone else even though they are willing to or don't mind?
One thing for sure, I want to be happy and content with what I already have.
Well... the midterms are going to end and so far, this is the only thing make me feel crazily happy.
I really enjoy my life because I can do almost everything I want to but something is wrong recently. I am changing and I don't know it's good or bad. I am satisfied with my life. However, sometimes I think I am not acting properly. People changed when people around them changed. When people see me in a different way compared to before, it makes me feel complicated. However, I made up my mind. No matter how people treat me or see me, I just have to be myself and I don't have to change anything unless it's a shortcoming.
I hope I can be polite to people even though he or she is a rude person.
I have to be humble even though I meet a person always likes to show off.
If someone did something to me that makes me feel uncomfortable, first, I have to think if I did it to other people, too before.
I hope I can be really thoughtful to those people who care about me.
Every week, I exam myself to see if I did things right but sometimes people are blind. I wish all the friend of mine can tell me whenever I did something wrong.

Rainy day

I don't like rainy day when I have to go out!!!!!!!!!! However, I like rainy day when I can stay at home~~~~~~~ HAHA!!!

Many things happened recently. I feel happy but worried, too.
People around me change and I don't know if it's good or not.
I hope I can always feel happy.
I hope people will not want to get anything from me and just want to be my friend.
I hope I can always remain positive and humble.
I hope I can speak less and listen more.
I hope I can be confident but not proud.
I hope my parents will not be worried about me.
I hope I can bring happiness to those I love.
I hope my days can always be busy and meaningful.
I hope I can do a good job on all of my tests.
Finally, I hope I can carry out all these hopes~~~~~~~~~~~~HAHA!!!!1


What can be more important than living happily ever after?

Being alone~~~~

I don't know why but I am quite enjoy the time when I was alone. Walking on the street, staying at home, or having dinner or lunch a lone. I used to be alone when I was in senior high school. It didn't mean that I didn't have friends. I had some really good friends but sometimes I just felt that when one had to wait for another one, it wasted time and I can use the time to study. Maybe it is because of the busy working life alert me to fine more time to study and I have to control my time.
It's not a bad thing. In this way, I can have more time to think and concentrate on my study.However, I love my friend too so I save some time for my friend and hoping that my friend can forgive my ''alone behavior''.

I got my salary today and I am quite happy and satisfied. A huge plan is waiting for the money. HAHA!!!

I have been thinking a lot recently; thinking about my days of being young. I don't want to waste it and I don't went to regret it when I am old. I am young and it's perfectly good to be young. I can never been too satisfied about my currant circumstances. I am tired about happy. I worried about money but I am earning money. I worried about my homework but I am studying. Being happy is not there is no difficulties or problems in my life; being happy is one can solve any problem in his or her life. Well... I can't imagine a life without trouble and difficulties. It must be very terrible.

April~~~~

A new month again~~~~ I think I'd better start to make a plan to schedual this new month. Don't want to work as hard as last month but put more emphasise on my study.


First I have to finish my novels and English literature.
I also want to go out and visit some places with my best friend.
One more important thing, I also have to find a tutoring job this month to help me earn more money.
And I also have to finish one essay this month.
Oh~~~~~~ and my tiring anf terrible midterm~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This wan't be a easy month.
I also hope that I can do more excersice this week.
One thing flashes into my head; I have to take a GEPT test this month.


Well.... It seems that this month will be very tiring, too. Since when I become such a busy person that I don't even have time to take a breath.

The end of March!!

This is a tiring month and I am glad that it finally comes to the end. I earned a lot of money this month and I also did a lot of things that I have to do.
Every thing went on and on~~~~~~~~ It seemed that I can never finish them and life goes on!! I feel a little bit tired but life goes on and on~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I think I will find the way out because I am still feel happy and energetic. I am Janer and Janer has to always face the bright side no matter what happened. If I want to carry out my dream, I have to solve every problem that appear to me. I hope I can become better and better and I also hope that I believe that I will become better and better. In this way, ever thing will turn out to be fine.
''Do not examine everything and every person in my life'' I told myself to remember this and then it will be easier to let go something and forgive people. I hope I can be a good adviser and a good friend. I don't want to make people feel stressful and I can't ask everyone to do exactly everything that I think it's right even though it's right. I can tell them but I can't ask them to do that because that's their life and not mine. The only thing I can do is do the best to be the person I want to be. Don't examine everything and everyone in my life and it will make it easier to let go things and forgive people~~~~~~~~

Plan...

I was used to making plans before I do everything, study, prepare for the tests, how to carry on my life etc...

I love to live a life with disciplines, order, tidiness and most important of all proper freedom. I don't like to be bound and don't like to be told to do something.

But after I go into college, I rarely really make a plan before I do anything. So many things distract my attention. Especially when I was a fresh man, I don't even know what I am doing and what should I do but now I do.

''Turn over a new leaf'', I always like this expression to show a kind if new life. I always LIKE!!! Now, I EXPERIENCE it!!! One day, when I am really 50 years old and recall all the memories of young age, I know there will no regrets left (when life offer you a dream so far beyond any of your expectation, it's not reasonable to grief when it comes to the end.)because I know I am always content and happy.

It's not to find out that being young is such a wonderful thing but sometimes people don't cherish it or don't know they have to cherish it. I am happy that I experience this feeling last Christmas. I think this is the best gift I've ever got. Sincerely, Thank God!!! Now, I know I have to take advantage of it and no more time wasted!!!!!!


Enjoy every pieces of my life, always see the bright side, and live with happiness, peace and truth.